She is part of a community I'm new too, and within the new community, Benji and I are considered a family. It's not a community where I've had a high profile divorce, like with the Burners, even though it's been years.
I guess I don't understand why getting divorced had to change friendships when it had nothing to do with them. I've tried not to take it personally, every time I hear of another Baby Shower or Wedding I'm not invited too. I try to remember that one can't invite everyone to these. I just didn't expect to be treated differently after getting divorced. That decision didn't mean anything against the married women in the community. I'm sorry that I asked y'all to support that relationship, and then couldn't support it myself. Please forgive me.
At what point do I get to shake off this past?
I also understand that I'm not good at keeping up relationships with girlfriends. And if that is the cause of this, then it's a reasonable one. It's a two way street, and I can't repair it alone.
I'm sad, and I miss you.